I have always been preoccupied with time.
But now, I am seeing time in a bigger context. I have to admit that I am always rushing to do my works, rushing to meet datelines, and rushing to chase more time.
Now that I have a real deadline, I really feel that I do not have enough time to complete the job. The job of being a good daughter. Time is running away from me, leaving me, and depriving me of the most important role of all, a role of a daughter.
I wish to have more time….I wish to be able to spend all my time with you… I do not wish to be anywhere else, do anything else other than being by your side.
But I know I can’t. I have had this thought to stay by your side all the time, but I know you wouldn’t approve. You would see me as incapable, and you will see yourself as useless too.
And so I abandon the thought. I will be brave, I will do what needed to done. And I will keep on buying time. I only need you not to leave me, because I couldn’t imagine the life without you.
