你是我的过去, 我这一辈子的遗憾….
事隔那么久了,为何你在这个时候回来? 为何突然问起我,关心我?
我已有了我的未来,但是…..但是你的出现…让’我的心荒了……
你只可以是我曾有过的美好回忆. 我不该想太多了.
我要我的未来!!
我要我的幸福!!
Archive for the ‘The L word’ category
遗憾
July 29th, 2010Love is blind (and the heart is blind too)
July 15th, 2010I have a best friend. He is a nice guy actually.
But recently, he did something that even I couldn’t really comprehend.
He broke up with his girlfriend of 4 years. For another girl.
And his new girl is not even half as nice, or beautiful or intelligent as his ex girlfriend.
I asked him, “what you see in her?”
He just shrugged. He do not know the answer himself.
Then I ask again, “what about your ex?”
“I know I hurt her, I can only apologize for breaking her heart.”
Hurt her, he say. She is beyond hurt! Even though I don’t know her very well (just an acquaintance), but I know that she is not fine at all.
Her facebook comments, her msn display message all betrayed her.
It is a pity seeing her like this. You see, she is one of the nicest girl I have ever known. She is smart, funny and have such a big heart. She is not even mad at my best friend for breaking her heart.
So I took up my courage and tell her, he doesn’t deserve you.
And she sighed. She did not cry, she did not shout, she did not try to change the topic. She just sighed.
As much as she is not willing to, she let him go.
And yet, he have the nerve to put his photo with his new girl on Facebook. With her sitting on his lap! He knew well enough that his ex would surely and curiously go and view that photo of them.
I do not know what to do with this friend anymore. I hate him now, I admit it.
I just couldn’t stand him being so unfair and inconsiderate to his ex.
But I guess love is blind.
A Pictorial of Fei Tze Birthday
November 26th, 200925 Nov 2009, Wednesday,
~About to depart from home~
~Already late because of spending too much time on make up ~
~He cannot decide which one to eat~
~ I cannot wait for my food to arrrive~
~Yummy sushi, RM18~
~See he so excited~
~Haha, so cute~
~This budak,so pandai choose, dessert also wana eat horliao~
~Mystique, memang chantek~
~Too sweet, i still prefer “What’s your flavour”
♡ ♡ 爱 ♡ ♡
November 14th, 2009爱~真的会令人疯狂。
有些人真的会为了爱人付出，放弃一切。即使他爱的人再也不爱他了，他还是愿意为他付出默默等待。
他不在乎那付出，等待是值得吗，他只想要再次拥抱。
但是这一种等待对对方是一种负担，是一种厌烦。
当爱已经不在时，再多的付出和等待也都不值得了。
***我只想你明白，没有一个男人是值得你如此痛苦的。
My 5 Days Ordeal
June 20th, 2009Thousands of thoughts ran through my mind when I realised that the time is near. I knew it is coming soon, but I never thought it will come so fast. You keep on telling me, 5 days is a short duration. You will be back before I knew it. But it is not like that, it is not a matter of time. It is how I am able to cope, how I am going to live with myself in these 5 days. Anyway, its already day 4 now, and I am still surviving. Cheers!!
Day 1
It was with heavy heart that I say goodbye to you. I feel down the whole day, like a piece of me is lost. I never thought it would be so difficult to let you go. I am getting more restless at night, because it is the moment I dreaded the most. I wouldn’t say I am afraid of loneliness, I actually liked being lonely. But somehow, without you, I feel the loneliness is killing me. I did not slept well that night.
Day 2
My first thought after I wake up is you. I think of what to sms to you, but you were faster than me. I guess you missed me too. Today is slightly better than yesterday. Perhaps I have come to terms that you are not here anymore. I had a very tiring day, and the only think that kept me going on is that I will have to go through this few days before I am able to see you again. I slept better today, but probably only because I am too tired.
Day 3
I woke up feeling lazy. It is Friday!! But who would have guessed that today is not a good day for me.I had a few small misfortune, and it only make me miss you more. If you here…..I keep on telling myself, you will be back in another 2 days. I relished on that thought. I know you missed me too.. I can feel it in all your sms-es. I am back at my own home, so I have no problem sleeping tonight.
Day 4
I get to wake up late today. It was fun. I thought you would have sms-ed me by the time I woke up,but you didn’t. Doesn’t matter, you need your beauty sleep too. You are going out shopping later, and I really do wish I could go with you. You sounded excited in your sms, and I know you will have fun. Don’t worry about me, I plan to enjoy my lazy weekend and get all the rest I lost. I will be fine today, because I will be able to see you tomorrow.
Day 5
It’s the final day!! My waiting is finally over. I will be going to airport later. I want to look my very best for you. And I finally can sleep in peace tonight.
It only take one trip abroad to let me know what I really want. And it is you. Now I do have a very clear view of my future, and you are in the picture too. :D
Just a gentle reminder, you promised me that you will bring me together anywhere from now onwards.
笑我笨。。。
April 25th, 2009原来，我一直等待的只是空气。原来，我在好久好久以前就已经失去。
他在好久以前就已经停止给我希望，只是我一直都宁愿选择盲目，选择不去听。
为什么会让我遇见他？为什么我会选择相信他？
是因为我笨。。。连我的影子都笑我笨。。。。
这次，我真的该死心了！！！
原来我也可以
February 14th, 2009今天我和他有了一些接触。并没有我想象中那么差。。。原来我也可以的。。
我相信很快，真的很快，我就可以把它物归原主。。。哈哈。。
期待那么一天的来临。我一定可以！！真得好开心哦！
<一定可以>
甜的过去
多多回忆
咸咸的泪水
请你别记
再热烈的爱情
也不能征服个性
我们得到了证明
我的坚持
让你委屈
你想要的
我无力
没有对错的问题
只是要想忠于自己勉强
我想我们都不愿意
你一定可以拥有更美好的恋情
他一定懂得去赞美你的聪明
我一定可以过得自在写意
做我最想做的事
我想我们真的都可以
若是想到
通个音讯
我不会尴尬
你别顾虑
曾经那么真心
相信还有默契我们会是好知己
你一定可以遇上最合适的伴侣
他一定比我更加成熟更有趣
我们都可以释怀心存感激
当未来的日子继续
好多事情值得去记忆
我想我们真的都可以
一定可以
我要的幸福
February 8th, 2009幸福？？一个很简单，意义却很深的字。每个人追求的幸福都不一样，可是并不是每个人都会得到幸福。。。
幸福真的很难吗？我要的幸福，真的是我需要的幸福吗？
幸福真的可以自己争取吗？还是，我已经注定与幸福擦肩而过。。。？
The dreadful day…
January 25th, 2009The moment I dreaded the most has arrived. But I think I handled it quite well, in the sense that I am calm and rational (most of the time :p).
Anyway, a few days has passed since the unfortunate incident, and I am still ALIVE! God bless me. I think I will be able to live well, if not better. Although sometimes I will still think of the happier times, but it has passed now. Everything is history now.
It’s up to me to make the most of my life now. Sometimes I really think I am in a deja vu situation. Everything happened so fast, its like a dream. Or maybe a nightmare. It doesn’t matter now. The only thing that matters now is me, myself and I.
-Lost confidence-
世界上最遥远的距离
January 18th, 2009世界上最遥远的距离，
不是生与死，
而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。
世界上最遥远的距离，
不是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你，
而是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起。
世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起，
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里。
世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里，
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人，
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠。
^ ^
