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Here I am, at 5.11pm on a Thursday evening, all ready to end a hard days’ work, when a phone call spoils all my plans.

You see, I have make plans to rush to the hospital immediately after work, to avoid the jams, to see my father sooner, or all sorts of excuses.

I even arranged for FeiTze to get car from home and fetch mum by 5pm so that they could reach my office on time.

But then, I underestimate my mum, it seems. Or rather, I did not communicate with her.

She is still not ready to go by the time FeiTze reached home. So she called me, asking me to go home first, and give me all sorts of excuses.

As usual, I give up. What else can I say, when it comes to communicating with a mum?? :S

SH Neoh My VVIPs mum

I thought in the 23 years of my life, I have gone through enough heartbreaks and moments of devastation that it has made me a stronger person.

How wrong I am! Because no one is prepared for this kind of heartbreak. No one should need to go through this kind of hurt. God should not be so cruel, to let us see the person we loved most getting more and more fragile day by day.

The man I once believe is a superhero, the man I have always known that he would protect me from any harm, getting weaker day by day. Because of the alien that invaded his body, and also because of our own negligence, for not able to notice and anticipate the attacks of the aliens.

I am definitely not prepared for all this. No one will understand how I feel when I see his fragile body; his reflex getting slower, his breathing getting faster and his soul getting wasted away.

I know how he feels when I look at him. He thinks he is useless. He actually despises himself, I think. For being in this kind of state after being the man of the house for more than 30 years.

But despite all this, despite the foreign entity that is slowly conquering his body and soul, I still think of him as my hero. The only difference is that my hero needed my care and protection now.

And I am not going to let go so soon, no matter what the outcome is.

SH Neoh My VVIPs hero

I have always been preoccupied with time.

But now, I am seeing time in a bigger context. I have to admit that I am always rushing to do my works, rushing to meet datelines, and rushing to chase more time.

Now that I have a real deadline, I really feel that I do not have enough time to complete the job. The job of being a good daughter.  Time is running away from me, leaving me, and depriving me of the most important role of all, a role of a daughter.

I wish to have more time….I wish to be able to spend all my time with you… I do not wish to be anywhere else, do anything else other than being by your side.

But I know I can’t. I have had this thought to stay by your side all the time, but I know you wouldn’t approve. You would see me as incapable, and you will see yourself as useless too.

 And so I abandon the thought. I will be brave, I will do what needed to done. And I will keep on buying time. I only need you not to leave me, because I couldn’t imagine the life without you.

SH Neoh My VVIPs time

擦干了眼泪，就勇敢向前冲！！

虽然时间从来不等待，可是我们会把握剩下的每一分，每一秒，珍惜和你在一起的每一刻.

SH Neoh Uncategorized

Things has gone drastically bad in these 2 days. But we will keep on fighting and we will not give up.

We beg you not to give up on yourself too. It pained me to hear you talking as if you are the man of our past.

You will always be in our heart, now and forever.

We will fight, till the end of time!! And we will WIN!!

SH Neoh My VVIPs fight

Today I managed to migrate FeiTze’s blog from Blogger.com to his http://letyouknow.name.my/blog.

Such a big achievement from me. So proud of myself . :p

But he doesn’t seem so enthusiatic about his new blog though.

Doesn’t appreaciate what I did for him also

SH Neoh Just for fun migration

25 Nov 2009, Wednesday,

 

 

 

 

 

~About to depart from home~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~Already late because of spending too much time on make up ~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~He cannot decide which one to eat~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~ I cannot wait for my food to arrrive~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~Yummy sushi, RM18~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~See he so excited~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~Haha, so cute~ 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~This budak,so pandai choose, dessert also wana eat horliao~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~Mystique, memang chantek~

 

 

 

 

 

 

~Too sweet, i still prefer “What’s your flavour”

SH Neoh Just for fun, The L word Fei Tze

爱~真的会令人疯狂。

有些人真的会为了爱人付出，放弃一切。即使他爱的人再也不爱他了，他还是愿意为他付出默默等待。

他不在乎那付出，等待是值得吗，他只想要再次拥抱。

但是这一种等待对对方是一种负担，是一种厌烦。

当爱已经不在时，再多的付出和等待也都不值得了。

***我只想你明白，没有一个男人是值得你如此痛苦的。

SH Neoh The L word 爱

被遗忘的感觉会是怎样的呢？？害怕？伤心？还是无奈？

昨晚在我家楼下，我看见一个小男孩补习完过后，正在等他家长来载他。他等了好久好久，都没有人来接他。我想，他们大概是忘了来接他。每当有车过时，他都会用很期待的眼神看。

过了一阵子，我终于忍不住去问了他，你需要打电话回家吗？他摇一摇头，用很害怕的眼神，说了一句“不用”。

当我正要离开的那一刻，我的心酸了一下。难道这个小男孩那么容易被遗忘吗？难道他的家长那么不重视他吗？

没有一个小孩是不值得被爱的。也没有一个小孩愿意被当作不存在的。

我也明白，可能他的家长是有急事，来不及准时接他。

可是，我相信，在那一刻，他可能觉得自己是世界上最可怜的小孩了。

SH Neoh A thought a day.... 遗忘，孩子

I found this on the Internet, and it is quite accurate.

Ruled by Saturn, Capricorn is symbolized by the Goat.

A Feminine Negative Cardinal Earth Sign Me as a woman:

1. I have a practical, sensible manner, and a steely will to snag the right man. I value security, authority, respect and position. I seem to be even-tempered and steady, but that is just a facade. I can flare up, when I get really hot under the collar.

2. I need to be assured of complete commitment, before plunge into a relationship. I am unusually attractive. Yet, I am unsure about my appearance. 

3. I am an excellent wife. I have a tight hand, and run a smooth home. I also have reality firmly in my grasp.

Me in relationships

Where the ‘us’ thing is concerned, I keep the ground rules pretty simple: Those with money, power and the trappings of success should step up to the plate. I will work hard at taking a union with the right person to newer heights. A bit of solidity, along with excitement and passion, is just the right mix. One must know the rules when dealing with Capricorn

What you should do:

1. Understand that between you and work, the Capricorn devotion to duty wins hands down.

2. Wait for a commitment. If the Capricorn is sure of the relationship, she is yours for life.

3. Surprise your Capricorn from time to time. Little gifts are all it takes to have the Goat committed to you for life.

4. Make promises you can keep.

5. Spend some time on personal grooming. The Capricorn appreciates good taste.

What you should not do:

1. Don’t ever embarrass the Goat in public. Capricorn has a strong sense of integrity.

2. Have a hold on your purse strings all the time. The Capricorn is appreciative of people who can save.

3. Don’t go back on your word, ever.

4. Don’t blame your Capricorn for being wedded to her job. That is how it will be.

5. Don’t accuse your Capricorn of being stuffy. It will take her a while to lighten up.

Beautiful Me

1. I have charted a long way to the top, and would not want a few strokes of the brush to distract my progress. But my beauty lies in my quick thinking power, and my ability to think well. And people do find my cool-as-cucumber facade irresistible!

2. Confidence is my greatest weapon.

3. I have an eye for detail, and this helps me weed out passing fads from the ones that stay. My elegance also shows in the confident and purposeful way I carry myself.

4. Power is essential to me, and I glow when I have it. My beauty comes from my resourcefulness and my ambition towards high-quality living.

Element of the Capricorn zodiac sign: Earth

Astrological quality of the Capricorn zodiac sign: Cardinal (i.e. activity)

Capricorn zodiac sign Ruling Planet: Saturn

Career Planet: Venus

Love Planet: Moon

Money Planet: Uranus

Planet of Communications: Neptune

Planet of Health and Work: Mercury

Planet of Home and Family Life: Mars

Planet of Spirituality: Jupiter

Colours of the Capricorn zodiac sign: black, indigo

Gems of the Capricorn zodiac sign: black

Metals of the Capricorn zodiac sign: lead

Best day of the week for Capricorn zodiac sign: Saturday

Strongest virtues of the Capricorn zodiac sign: sense of duty, organization, perseverance, patience

Deepest need of the Capricorn zodiac sign: to take charge and manage

Weaknesses of the Capricorn zodiac sign: negative thoughts, depression, and undue materialism

SH Neoh Just for fun, Uncategorized Zodiac